Do you know how many blogposts I have
written this year? Ten dozen or more, all so beautifully formulated as well.
Right to the point, while expanding on my simple “going with the flow” mantra
that has been my personal motto since the year 2000. Yet most of all giving me
the space to express what I believe, how I live and where I am going in this
“savour my life year”. They are all neatly logged within the files of my mind.
I always feel so elated when I am finished. Today though I thought I might
share one instead of keeping it inside.
If you were a follower on my Facebook or
Instagram pages you would know that I have taken on a small experiment to find
out more or perhaps less about flow. Over eleven days, sets of free download
video or audio sessions are given out per mail, to those whom have joined the
“flow! summit” group. You can watch what you feel drawn towards or leave the
lot enclosed in its email invitation. Up to you. Considering that I am in
recuperation time at home, after a knee operation, there is not too much I can
do between doctor’s visits and resting. So because I have the time it is
proving to be quite an interesting daily adventure.
So the clock had just passed noon and I
was pondering how productive of a person was I. I was presently wiping over the
oven bottom, freeing it of some murky substance that had seeped out of my
baking veggies, while also lending my awareness to a pod cast from a very
upbeat young American, listing his eight ways to get into flow. He had just
posed this question regards being a productive person. I was hungry and wanted
to get to those veggies, so I only occasionally flicked my eyes to the computer
scene sitting on the kitchen bench when he mentioned “ and here I have it all
for you in a flow chart”. Honestly that was enough. I stopped the program
because I was sick of the presentation, which I felt was becoming an
advertising plug for his product. I actually after eating, went back to listen
to where I had left off, just to satisfy my own knowing that I hadn’t missed a
thing and confirm my intuition was right on.
My reaction to this still makes me smile
now as I sit in the garden, under the crab apple tree, swiping bugs from having
a party on my bare skin - all part of getting my daily dose of vitamin D and natures
healing essence; sunshine. And the contrast couldn’t be more pronounced if I
tried. Here I am aware of the continuous bird sounds, the odd farmers taxi and
a car somewhere in the far distance. A few voices rise and fall as they pass by
on the edge of the property and the drone of an airplane is gracing the
outskirts of all this normality and I am deeply in relaxation and healing mode.
I am completely in flow.
It happened, my smile, as he wanted to
say how normal he is – the guy in the podcast if you’ve lost track of my flow.
He listed all the silly billy things he had done that day, which seemed normal
and then wait for it, all that he had accomplished, which just was plain
bragging. Yeap that’s what I thought. It was from this moment onwards I knew
his message wasn’t for me. And thats ok. Yet he had shown me something
important and for that I was grateful. Let me explain it this this.
I could tell you as well what I did
today to make you feel better; such as practiced squatting with both feet firmly
placed on the ground, to scratch Pokies (my boarder collie) ears. He yelped
giving me quite a fright, making me pull on his ears even harder, as I
concentrated keeping my balance and standing up straight again. Remember I have
just had my knee operated on and this was a very brave new move for me to try
out, after having no bending activity for the last 21 days. Believe me when I
say I needed to rest for a good hour afterwards, contemplating what perhaps I
could have done different and hoping once I return to work I have the “bend at
the knees” down pat (I work in a kindergarten so there is a lot of knees up and
down going on there!).
Or how I practiced my pulling up my
thigh muscle, by pressing my knee into the flat floor underneath me, while
rising my foot to stretch to and meet my nose (all of course in my minds eye,
not in reality) and felt the whole time as if someone had whipped out my thigh
muscle, while I was under the anaesthetic because it sure wasn’t here anymore.
Now your saying “yeap I did heaps more
than her today. How good am I now!” What if though I was to tell you that if I
was not in the situation I am in right now, I would have already before noon
gone for a ten kilometre run (a thing of the past now. Will have to boost about
how many laps I swim from now on), washed the car inside and out, did all the
laundry, made the beds, whipped over the floor with the hover, answered new
emails, did online banking for the months end, wrote down all my ideas for my
next blog post, posted a new instagram picture, checked out my facebook page,
mended my daughters work clothes, sewed some items for work, sorted my photos
from the past week from my iPhone to a hard disc, washed the winter garden
windows and organized our social calendar for the next week. Then sent voice
messages to some friends as I drove to start working a six-hour shift at
one.
Are you still with me? I do not know if I would be because who honestly wants
to know what you squeeze into your minutes. Be it writing a novel, painting
your own model ship your building in the backyard or starting off a telephone
service for frustrated workaholics. Its your stuff, not mine and although I can
image it tickles your fancy; if I am trying to get you more into “your flow” by
sharing my ideas, I sure do not want to piss you off. That is what I felt
listening to this guys “pat down”. I would rather pull up the feeling of
gratitude for what I am giving than frustration.
It made me think back on what I wrote
several days ago on Instagram, and wish to share it with you for it is what I
believe can be more uplifting than listing my have done list.
“Butterflies are made to fly ... just
sometimes they can get stuck while on route inside a house, barn or if they are
born inside your fantasy as a new idea to take flight; then in the web of your
minds ego.
Let's go with this last one. A fragile
idea is born. When it gets stopped in its tracks you feel yourself frustrated,
blocked, disgruntled and somehow out of place. Wondering how it get out of this
dead end, often reaching out to grab at straws, the project gets deflated
before it has even spread its wings. In such a situation, go back to why you
wanted to begin the idea to start with. Look at the cocoon, which it developed
inside. See the basics. Understand the energy that was created there and spread
those wings again.
Just this time go with the flow of
gratitude for creating and watch a new direction unfold. It could be different
than you intended at your first take off. Yet I bet it will succeed for the
simple fact your experience creation in motion instead of forced established
notions. Freedoms are felt on the wings of a butterfly because they lift us
away from the heaviness of being earth bound. It is why I believe heaven can be
here on earth for all and I will continue to do my small part in giving it a
possible chance to take flight again and again and again.”
Here´s hoping this helps you get more into your flow now.
Your Korus